Leaving Never Never Land

I think I liked you best when I was at my worst.

Maybe it was sibling rivalry –
a natural need to one-up the other,
so that when the dawn rose on my shenanigans
you stopped at said,
I can do better.

I suppose you waited until I left Never Never Land,
waited until they shoved a gun into your hand,
waited until they shipped you to a desert
and made you a real man.

The clamor of change rang loud between us
with a twelve-hour long labor and the first cries from tiny purple lips,
with an attack on the road
and it was your birthday.
You called to tell me how their heads exploded
and I told you how she had learned to sit up.

Someone must have flicked the channel
from Family Matters to a random shuffle.
We never know what we are going to get.
These days, I’m about as exciting as raspberry jam on toast
and you are a firing squad of emotions –
random feelings sprayed against the wall
until something hits,
something sticks.

You are a rock opera –
a whole story singing out into the darkness
and I am a goldfish
with a three second memory
and a tiny bowl to call home.

I want to compose starlight for you.
I want to write a new script.
I want to show you the map and each step I took
because coming out of Never Never Land is an ugly thing
and you’re trapped in there,
in a never-ending war.

You’ve beaten me now.
Your better at tragedy than I ever was.

I think I liked you best when I was at my worst.

© Laura A. Lord, September 2017


Thank you to MindLoveMiserysMenagerie for their inspiration.

4 thoughts on “Leaving Never Never Land

  1. thank you for playing the wordle this week Laura. 🙂

    I think you’ve used the words in such a creative, unexpected fashion. It’s really brilliant – from the opening line, which just ties it all together through its repetition at the end, through the images you’ve created in the body of the poem. It really is stunning, the comparisons of one world, softer and the other, so harsh and heavy. The assemblage of the two when they are pieced together adds incredible dynamics and energy, while hinting at how fractured it all is. Great piece of writing 🙂

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